In early April I was having a conversation with my brother about how I had been praying about this moment and how I wanted to be open to what God might want me to do - continue in the DROP program or go full force with my private counseling which might include some specialty groups and more training seminars. He said that in his life when he was praying similarly, a truth continued to come back to him which was to "seek my face" and the other will become clear. I received that and was relieved about having to make a decision immediately for May 7th.
Then in my Men's Group on Tuesday mornings, Mark Foster began with 2 Chronicles 7:14 "if my people, who are called by my name, will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then will I hear from heaven and will forgive their sin and will heal their land."
This was a rather humbling message, because it let me know that certainly I was to seek the Lord, but that there was no righteousness in me and He was my only answer. The only answer I needed. I did not need to know exactly what job I was going to be doing, I just needed to trust Him more - but more than that, I needed to let Him be ALL I needed.
Psalm 27:8 My heart says of you, “Seek his face!" Your face, Lord, I will seek.
Matthew 6:33-34 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
Even after being a Christian as long as I have been, it is an awesome thing when God speaks. I found humor in my own approach to this experience as I talked to my high school buddy, Brett. I dawned on me that I had been praying for a year, but had given God a multiple choice question! I had outlined the few ways He could answer, but He surprised me with something completely different. I need to pay attention to my relationship with Him instead of concerning myself with what is coming next!
I look forward to what He has in store. I will seek His face and know that He is ALL I need.